Leah Farmer

Personal perspectives on faith, literature, and life.

The C-word & 2020…

Wait…what?

You thought I meant THAT c-word?

Nooooo…not that one. Though I have discovered there is a time and place for that c-word when well placed and deserved. I call that the enlightenment of living in Europe. (hahaha!)

No…what I meant was a different c-word entirely. Or better put…several c-words.

In 2020, I’m chasing the following core desired feelings:

Connection
Curiosity
Contentment
Creativity
Courage

These are the 5 things I will focus on manifesting in my life each day…and when I’m in doubt or fear, I will turn to these 5 words for encouragement to move from stuck places to new places of growth and wholeness.

For most of 2018 and 2019, I stayed in survival mode. I did thrive in a few areas. I think I grew significantly as a leader and took new territory in my confidence as a speaker. I also bravely went back to school when it didn’t make sense to anyone but me.

On the other hand, I also didn’t live my life the way I wanted. I didn’t take care of myself. I put everyone else first. I was weighed down by the ambivalence and lack of ethics of others. I wanted to influence and instead got caught up in chasing problems that are not mine.

So…in 2020, I will live and let live. I will walk away from what I cannot change and cannot support. I will lead what is mine to lead. I will influence those who matter to me…and those who look to me for guidance. I will trust in the goodness of humanity again. I will drink more water. I will stretch. I will be open to new friendships…new loves. And I will laugh…every single god damn day.

I will show up as my ever courageous self. I will be curious about people, places, and things. I will study and will make time for creativity. I will make connections with those I love now and those I haven’t had the chance to love yet. And I will be content…as in happy with each day as it comes…not as in settling for everything as it is.

Here’s the deal…

I love you.

But I also love me.

So I’m going to make room for both. Because love is big enough for us.

Happy New Year! May your 2020 be filled with wonder and blessing.

Love,
Me

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